all new! yeahh..

as what u see. all new! its no longer 'sweet sours apples', but 'CIRCLES'. a lil' bit of it. 'CIRCLES' is the best and simple words to express life;

1. because, a wheel is a circle. life's like a wheel. kejap kat atas. kejap kat bawah. kejap kiri. kejap kanan.

2. because, in friendship, in family, it's also like a circle. there's no ENDs.

3. because, circles mean retro.

haha. the third is not totally serious. hehe. well, for me, its time for a new start. fresh.
more to say, but let time judge it. :))
learned, explored, think.


p/s: template ni kebetulan je terjumpe. hee..

"anewfreshstart"

1st try okehh :)

first try.
saje gatal-gatal tangan. hehe.
saje nak kongsi-kongsi. hee.
jemput la, sape yang minat laa..
klik;
"cinta seorang buaya"


p/s: dedicated to ekin, wanie & any girls out there. hehe. :))

ohh rubbish!

whoah.. couple of day b4, my famly n i, when for a picnic. picnic ke? hehe. xkesa laa. more to fishing i think. location sg linggi. da lame kot xjejak kaki kat situ. last.. afta spm? plus minus la.. hee.. tmpt tu generally, best, cantik permai.. ad tmpat kaki pancing.. kaki lepak.. sbb siap kdai2 mkn n payable toilet. hehe. TETAPI, ni yg xbest.. there are lots lots of RUBBISH here and there.. urghh.. espeacially kat jeti mmncing tuhh. perghh.. xbley blah. foods residue.. bottles, wrappers.. yuckks! no need to be details. sume la ade. cukop pakej. huhuu..

sad. bile xde kemudahan, bising. bile da disediakan kemudahan, cmni la behaviour nye! to be mean, ni laa org malaysia.. totally xbersyukur n langsung xhargai kemudahan. then, bile kemudahan trsebut diminta bayaran, yaa for this stuff, pay workers to clean up, pun, bising jugakk.. da tu, nape sendiri xjage kebersihan? kalau org islam. terang2, masing2 tahu kebersihan separuh dr iman. tp dr segi praktikal nye? sad.. totally sad..

isu ni, bkn kat ctu jek. kat mane2 je ade. sikap tu yg mnntukan. mase sekolah, tajuk karangan BM, brkali2 bangkitkan isu ni. tulis mnjela-jela. siap kritik itu ini, cadang itu ini. tp utk pe? A je ke? knape xde praktikal? itu yg kite xtaw.. huu.. kalau sikap setiap dr kite xbrubah, xde kesedran dlm diri, isu ni, xmgkin brubah.. mlh akan terus mnerus dr generasi ke generasi yg laen.

syarikat2 swasta sebok wat kempen sana sini. pung pang pung pang, tp pringkat awal jekk.. 2 3 mggu pertama, ok laa.. then, what happen?? all that just bulls**t! propaganda masing2 semata-mata. but, kire ok la kan dari xde langsung? haii.. bumi nak hijau, air nk bersih. udara nk segar, diri nak selesa. tp sikap mcm hampehh.. fikir-fikrlah sendri. masing-masing ade otak kurniaan Tuhan yg Esa.


Malaysia Boleh! boleh ape?

"tepuk dada tanya IMAN"

aku perigi, kau timba.

satu hari yg sejukk.

berkata perigi kpd timba:

"terima kaseh atas kebahagian dan perhatian yg kamu beri dlu.
maaf, sy tdk ada kecantikkn utk mmbanggakan kamu.
maaf, sy tdk ada suara yg merdu utk menyanyi utk kamu.
maaf, sy tdk ada kelebihan utk gembirakan kamu selalu.
maaf, sy tdk ada harta utk memberi.
maaf, sy tdk ada sepenuh masa utk kamu.
maaf, sy tdk ada sifat memahami utk faham kamu.
maaf, sy tdk ada jambatan utk bertemu kamu.
tetapi, sy ada sepenuh kasih sayang, kesetiaan dan kerinduan buat kamu.
sekali kamu memilikinya, sampai bila pun, ia milik kamu.
namun jika itu, apa yg sy ada, kamu tdk mahu, maka, jelaskan lah.
berterus terang, dan tinggalkanlah sy, perigi yg lemah ini..."

jawab timba:

"...."

its ur day darll..!

eeit. ^^
da nk abis pon 19 november.
lantak lah,nk jugak, hepi burfday to beloved sis, NUR FATEHA MURTADZA! eh yeke nme ayah die ek? hee.

semoga murah rezeki & best of luck in your life!

kesempatan ni gak, nk wish eepy belated to: ekin(5 NOV), tasha(..bile eh??), ummu(5 NOV), shaza(5 NOV), um(..sept..hee.).. n sape2 lg yg ak xsempat nk wishh. soryy! huu.

"muhasabah, apa kebaikan yg dilakukan sepanjang kehidupan ini."

u decide for ur own!

"when i grow up, i wanna be a doctor!"

"when i grow up.. teacher! ..engineer! ..pilot! ..lecturer ..accountant! .."

all those are answers to a very familiar question, "what is your ambition?", asked when we're little kiddo. naah. typical n proud answers. but, try la tgk, bpe ramai jek yg betol2 mncapai 'cita-cita' tersebut? and, there are lot lots of reasons on why it doesnt be like what it should be. most common, study xlepas. when growing, minat tibe2 tuka arah. dr science kpd sastera. hee. and, the one yg nk highlight, parents hopes, wishes n perhaps, wasiat?? hoo.

xyah amek contoh org len, juz me cukop. dlu, lau org tnye soklan cm kat atas tu, or tulis biodata kat lam buku mse skola rendah dlu an, ak msti tulis, PENSYARAH. coz wut? parents cikgu, then cikgu ak plak ckp, kite kene jd lg ebat dr parents. so, kire lg tggi sket la kan, lecturer. aha. mind set knk2. then, nek umo sket, its changed. from the current, to ACCOUNTANT. why? coz mase tu gile mnt math xingat dunie. haa. terer math = accountant. still, mind set budak2. hee.

then, secondary school. lau perkenalkan diri tu, mmg xlepas la soklan, "cite-cite?". guess what? the answer, back to the first, lecturer. sbb? mngalami mslh ala2 split personaliti. confuse. so, sng cite, hentam la. hehe. senior2 penah ckp, lau nk pkr kareer mse dpan, afta pmr, da kene serius pkr. sbb aliran yg kite amek tu lah, penentu.

papp! kene plak result pmr sgt best. maka, bermula la harapan mggunung parents. amek sains. mreke harap, anak dara diorg yg sorg je ni, akan suatu hari nnt, jd seorg DOKTOR. haila!
ak kate, ok, strive for it. tp, hati ak kate, yeke ni? should i? am i a doctor to be?
but, da kate lam ati, so mmg xkuar2 la. bersawang je lam ati. mmg try to be, kaw-kaw minat biology. but the truth, im forcing maself to love biology. erkk.

okeyh next, dpt result spm, thanx god, agak ok la, shock me, my physic was A instead of my biology. ahah. hikmah di sebaliknye? maseh ingat, seloroh manje tasha, "fizik ko A? aii, tu tndenye, ko kene mnjurus ke arah fizik tuh. hehe". yeah, perhaps. that was totally what im thinking tOo.

kemudian, jeng.. jeng.. jeng.. hehe, berlaku la kesilapan besar pertama lam idop ak, mse mohon JPA, ak g bantai mnx kedoktoran. bengOng. da taw result lebih kurg, ade ati tuu! tnyeela sbb. sbb? permintaan mreke. even mreke x directly asked, but i knew, they were wishing for it. hoho. penyesalan? of course, mgkin, mungkin skali, permohonan tu, adalah kejurutraan, it may b considered. menyesal? naah. da xgune da.

matrikulasi. aliran sains. tp maseh xtaw cabang pe. abah suruh, sume taw la kan, hayat. ak pon mohon la. mane taw, berkat ibu bapa. and again, its shown, ak dpt, sains fizikal. frankly, ad prasaan halus yg cam buat ak hepy n suke laa! berat. ak inform abah. ayat pertama,"boleh mohon tukar kan?" see. ak pon aci mcm nk xnk jek ckp boleh tuka. haila, dlm ati mmg xnak tukaa!

mcm bese, dlm ati, is matter dlm ati. still, i asked for changed and worth it. matrices life was deniable. happening. suke duke. sume la campOor2. kat situ la knal dunie slain dunia prsekolahan. kat situ la kenal cbran. kat situ la kenal cintaa. eh? hehe. shhh. :)
dan berlaku lg kesilapan, ak leka n sng ckp, maen2 mase tuh. bukk! amekk..
result pon atas pagar jekk. mcm ni, attitude sorg doktor?? naah. jauh panggang dari api.

okeh, tgk banding beza eh, a fren of mine, yg bakal jd real2 doktor, rajen tahap x engat. me? on off jekk. daya hafalan? mantap! me? gelak sket ilang sume. they hve their own secretly attitude which is hard to me to tell. definitely, different from me. and, the fact that im not going to be a doctor is already known by me ages ago, but still, i want to follow their wish. why ehh?

urmm. now, im taking my degree on polymer engineering. see? mohon dlm bidang biologi, dpt gak kejurutraan. think about if i try it at the first place before? yaa. no need to regret. kate org, ade hikmah di sebaliknye. juz, gembira seadanye dgn kehidupan skrg. lebih2 lg, mreke juga, suda dpt terima, yg ak, bkn calon mereka2 yg beruniform puteh. :)
tringat kata2 abah lpas dpt twran degree dlu,"abah da agak, akak msti akn ke arah fizik..". huhh?? nak salahkn siape? parents yg mahukan yg terbaek tuk anak2? atau diri sendiri yang xtaw nk pertahankan pndirian serta xgunakan kesempatan dan peluang sebaik nye?

nasihatku: kpd mereka yg maseh berkire2 nk jd pe, look at ur own potential, decide ur own decision. semoga x menyesal once.

continue the lyfe.



"melentur buluh biar dr rebung nye"

SPM dtg lg! :)

okeyh. zmn ak da brlalu. 2007 dlm kenangan.
ssh payah, jerit perih utk tahap itu suda berlalu.

juz nk wish GUD LUCK kat junior2 SBPI JEMPOL yg merupakan calon SPM taon ni.
all the best, make sure product2 school kite mantap2 sumenye k!

"berusaha bkn utk kejayaan dunie sahaje, berusaha juge demi kejayaan akhirat. ilmu dituntut, bkn kerana 10A SPM, ttp ilmu dituntut kerana DIA. :)"

specially dedicated to;

-nur fareha.

-nur izzat.
-faez.

izzat.

fareha.

xde kene ngene sebnanye. hee.



"peperiksaan itu medium utk menguji"

ice cream lOver :)

currently, im eating my ice cream, alOne.
juz finishng all houseworks.
relaxing, enjoying the icy cOol creamy. hee.
listening to the rain. peaceful.
watching the little hamster curling alone in his 'house'. dat thing, is ALONE toO.
am i alOne?
nope i thing. coz, i hve my famly at my side.
but, y eh?
still feelng lonely?
okayh, enouf.
i admit, missing him damn much.
urghh.
let calculate, matrix life end on may. and now, its already nov. goin to dec.
almost 6 month. perhaps 7 already.
haila. dunno from where i got this strength to keep patience.
dunno when till we meet again.
juz planting my patience, day by day.
accepting ur changes bit by bit, even its quite hurt.
okayh, enouf.
juz need to spill it out.
currently, my icy creamy is finish.
need more.
enjoy it in the coOl rainy day. crazy? perhaps. hee.
taking away the burden.
yeah.
:)

"patience have limits too"

a gift, a hope :)

about a month ago, perhaps, i was otw back from class. ibu called. she told me, she was at POH KONG. huh? mak aih. hee. then, she said, "ibu and abah got sumthing for u. so, juz study betol2.. ok?"
fuhh. happy, for the sumthing, feel quite heavy for the hope. hehe. not bcoz i'm lazy or what. but, though gak wOo course ak nih. haila..

papepon, i'll try my best, smarter n harder. all out. anyway, my 1st final exam, was ended. quite satisfied, but oso afraid fo the result. huu.


neway, terkejut petale ke-8 ak tgk gift trsebut!
a pair of platinum stud earings and, a platinum necklace.
fuhh. beyond my thought. huu.

thnx ibu, thnx abah.
will hold ur HOPE, tightly in my grasp. in my heart.
luv both of u! muahx
:)

:)

:))

huu~


"ibu bapa sanggup berkorban demi anak-anak tercinta"

finally...=)

finally, da exam was ended.
finally, my 1st semester in my 1st year, was ended.
finally, all those sillies things we do at PERLIS for diz sem, was ended.
finally, all those knowledge we explored at UniMAP, was ended up at the exam answer sheets.
finally, i left WANG ULU for this certain times.
finally, i am writing back my blog.
finally, the best thing ever, I'M HOME!

hee. wut a day. 8 hours of journey. tOo many obstacles. even we're juz sit down n slept all da way. 'tok wan' the driver. k.kOng the co-pilot. freezing in the rain. changed bus, heavy bags. sighh. the most freaky-weird, a sex-pshycotic attacked 1 of us. urgh. scary siOott!

btw, FINALLY, we arrived safely to our own homies..
hee.

kupt nk jatuh. aha~

surya. kupt. baggies. aha~

4 tickets. background cun. cet~

sempat :)

xera. kupt. syafi. toilet R&R. aha~



"hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu negeri sendri, baik lagi negeri sendiri"